ACM BAYBAY ~!

i nvr want it all to end.

2010-07-16T04:13:00.000-07:00

ystdae was one of the worst days in my life. words i nvr expect to hear from u. u killed me at that moment. u killed me slowly.

but then i tot/i realised u were just too mad when u made that decision. thank god i was right. u cooled my heart wit all your apology msgs, 4 is indeed unexpected. u fixed me up again, but im still crumpled. we took things slowly. tears kept rolling down but in the end we hung up smiling :)

keep your promises honey. i never want things to repeat itself.

we've been thru too much to just leave this place for some shity reason.

you know i love you. i tell you that every single day. doesnt that mean anything.

lets take things much more serious and maturely than usual okay. lets make history baby.

lets just put wtv has happened behind and look into the future okay? you know i love you d.

9 mths in a r/s, a year of knowing each other ; just cant imagine 081009 to end so soon.

iloveyoushafiq, iswearido.

081009 ; DYLAAAAAAAAAAPIK !

pictures :)

2010-07-08T04:29:00.000-07:00

aaaaaaaaaaaaaapik !

2010-06-17T06:16:00.000-07:00

im proud to say that hys dad doesnt lyk to see us fight.

once he threaten apik if he ever fight wit me again, he will get beaten.

hahaaaa, so wenever apik bullies me i will tell ayah.

best tau to see apik get scolded dgn ayah bcoz of me. hehe :D

ILOVEMUHAMMADSHAFIQKAY?

we stand together strong at the top.

2010-06-10T00:54:00.000-07:00

Earthquakes can't shake us.
Cyclones can't break us.
Hurricanes can't take away OUR LOVE.

8 is just a digit. its the LOVE we feel for each other that matters.
we've been tru thick and thin and i have faith that we can go further, much further.
eversince you stepped into my life, i never felt cold and alone.

I LOVE YOU, SHAFIQ.

ORANGE (:

2010-05-02T09:35:00.000-07:00

dyla punyer. heh (:

sorry havent been able to update much. malas lah.

planned nk watch ironman 2 on fri since LOVE mati2 nk tgk. pfft.

asked ayu if she wanted to tag along for the movie n she agreed.

but i checked the time listings only on the day itself.

i booked it online since it was fucking packed.

book for 1015pm show.

den wait for LOVE to rch my place, siap2 den wen off.

ayuajim da pnt sgt tgu kt hg so dey proceeded to PS way earlier, thx to LOVE :D

smpi saner tros took the tix.

had subway n rushed back up. bought popcorn n nachos n wen in.

i booked the second row from front n it was in the middle. end up stepping on some chinese ppl's foot. hurhur. sorry.

IRONMAN 2 GEREK, TK BEDEK :p

end at 1245. smoked, took cab to ayu's place wit ayuajim den walked all the way back.

LOVE slept over my place.

CONDEM SIOL. end up dier tdo dlm bilik aku kt lantai sbb tknk kene kacau dgn kakak de next morning -.-

woke up at 11+ coz kakak was being an irritating ass. hurhur.

wen inside the room to check, LOVE was awake.

bareng2 dgn dier den tertdo agik. check2 dier pun samer. heh.

den was woken up by kakak at 2pm.

den had a little tiff wit LOVE jap but den everything was ok.

we wen out awhile to compass since kwn kakak kt uma. den wen back hm at 6.

chilled till 930 off to compass again to buy ciggies den off back to my place watch susuk togeder wit my fam.

den watched till 11 jek since LOVE wanted to catch the last bus.

tad wen JB wit fam.

bought alot at GIANT, ate alot too.

im allergic to seafood. so eating seafood = very sexy fat lips lyk LOVE. hurhur.

penat siol.

now waiting for LOVE to kol me.

kol me fast pls. i rinduuuuuuuuuuu u (:

missing bbygirls. MAIE, AYU, AYUU.

meet up togeder soon my bitches. love ya'll. muackxx !

2010-04-23T07:47:00.000-07:00

you make things so much better when things start to fall apart.
i never wanna lose someone lyk you

iloveyouD.

BORED.

2010-04-18T01:15:00.000-07:00

sorry for my long absence. been really lazy to switch on the comp.

even wen my adik is using the comp malas lah nk pakai. heh.

so alot has happened dis days. trying to spent as much tyme wit LOVE as possible.

hys been bz wit soccer but at tymes how tired he cud be, he wud still turn up at my doorstep.

sweet kn? klau tk den ko nyer psl.

at least he has always been there for me (:

on friday planned to slip over maie's place to bake chocolate cake for LOVE.

he's been craving for it eversince he finished up the previous one tat i made wit maie.

i slept at 5 in the morning aft all the baking n woke up at 845 to go CE for NDP auditions.

hope im selected coz i soo wanna be a motivator again (:

wen hm, LOVE's already waiting for me on the sofa. slept wit hym till 5+.

chilled n smoked awhile den i bathed, siap den we went off to maie's place to take the cake.

left some for her fam, took some over to ibu's place, abit for me n lastly for LOVE.

rched hm at 1010. at1045 LOVE wanted to go back so sent hym to bustop.

hys family tasted the cake n dey said dey liked it.

heh.

well, i hope ill get selected n gonna start work soon !!!

im so freaking bored at hm lah. sheesh !

ill update again soon okay.

taiikares babydolls.

daa ~!

to ayubby; think tru of wat u really want to

do okay honey?

whatever ur decision is, i'll be there to support u,

lyk hw ive always had tis yrs. ily bitch.

shafiq oh shafiq !

2010-04-04T11:20:00.000-07:00

so ive made a decision to change my blogskin since im bored to death while LOVE is having hys slip.

he hasnt gotten hys rest since two days ago.

kadang2kn laki degil tknk dgr kate mataer. pfft !

tgk ah, smpikn tgglkn aku daripade kul 10+ tad n now its ald 1+. aiyoh.

was out ystdae wit ayu&ajim, double dating. watched JUON at vivo.

was planning triple date but, oh well. heh.

so maie's planning to slp over my place tomorrow.

lets see hw lah hor.

k lah, im gonna turn in now.

im slipy but i just cnt put myself to slip from just nw.

maybe gonna disturb LOVE for awhile, hear hys voice den go to slip.

heh.

k lah, tc bitches !

imissmuhammadshafiqlahdengs.

2010-03-31T00:52:00.000-07:00

I MISS MY BABYBOY :(

work, soccer. ME??

Friday come quick pls !

upcoming 8th marks our 6 :)
i love you D.

still going on strong

2010-02-25T04:49:00.000-08:00

hello !

sorry havent been updating much. been bz with family, friends and LOVE.

ive been with LOVE this few days straght.

i met LOVE n hys buddy ANANG on saturday and went off to chingay but end up lmbt -.-

so peg makan dkt macdonalds marina. my god, tmpt sungguh tk perlu. pfft ~

den aft tt we ddk dkt steps skejap nk smoke -.-

went off aft 10 mins. i cudnt stand the place. buat saket mata jek ^^

off to suntec. pk nk kacau ayu at work, check2 dabes so wen off to buangkok tosakura with AYUAJIM.

den from buangkok wen back hm jln kaki with LOVE.

wait kt bwh smpi kul 2 den naek uma.

LOVE slept over my place. he plan nk alik pagi, tatot bpk but den mum said its ok bpk tau he wit me.

so slept till 12+ gitu. den kakak ajak g east coast. so me n LOVE took public dere.

we rched at the spot whr my family was in 2 hrs tyme. believe me i was damn tired.

n the reason was kte trun so much earlier n had to walk for 45 mins ! exercise lah apik kate.

LOVE tolong abg fi fishing n i called him over coz i wan to slip.

so pnjm pehe dia den slip while dier maen psp.

den he woke me up nk g toilet n smoke.

at 8 we took public hm.

rch hm nearly 10.

he slept over my place again.

so on monday we woke up real late coz we were real tired.

den tat nyte LOVE wen back.

the next day LOVE fetch me from hm den wen to sentosa wit AYUAJIM&MAIEAPPY.

we wen to pahlawan beach. sorry no pics. we were too bz haven fun.

me n LOVE wen back early. he sent me hm. ate at my plce den he wen off.

&ystday LOVE came over again. he was really manja ystday. hurhur.

cute lah mataer aku kdng2. but im so much cuter :D

today im hm but LOVE is at teban playing soccer wit hys buddies.

dying my hair later. hurhur. not telling LOVE coz he wun let me dye nomore. bluek !

k lah. nk dye rmbt n wait for LOVE.

tggu lah agik satu bulan baru dyla update ehk. hurhur (:
taiikares loves.

still going on strong.

2010-02-11T06:38:00.000-08:00

never thought we could last this long.

i rmbrd u first texted me on the 9th of July.

i rmbrd the day we first met on the 30th of September.

we took alot of time to get to know each other and our friendship lasted for 3 mths.

being friends with u at that time, i felt secured.

u cared so much for me and u showered me with neverending love.

on the 8th of October u were trying to ask me something.

and at last at 4am u finally did. it only took me 10 minutes to actually think tru.

honestly, there wasnt much for me to think abt.

u were th one who cud stand my suckish attitude that i myself hated.

u've successfully make me forget my past.

i had faith that u cud change abit of me.

but most importantly, YOU LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM.

since that day, i had a smile on my face.

i know 4 mths is nothing much BUT;

i made a decision to start this new meaningful chapter with u.

on the 8th of October at 4.17 in the morning.

and never once have i regretted having to share my life with u.

u make me feel special in every way though there were some problems here and there.

i prayed to god for a miracle to happen and finally he gave me an answer;

YOU.

I LOVE YOU MUHAMMAD SHAFIQ, ALWAYS.

0810.

deeplyinlove

2010-01-18T12:08:00.001-08:00

all i need is YOU ;

MUHAMMAD SHAFIQ dyla yg punya :D

epicepicepicepicepic.

2010-01-17T07:26:00.000-08:00

pics on the 14th, thursay.

sentosa with LOVE&my best ppl.

im sorry love.

2010-01-16T09:13:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUHAMMAD SHAFIQ !

today is the 17th of january and its BF's birthday. i din make him happy at all. i made him mad and disappointed coz i forgot my own BF's birthday. i 've been a real bad GF dis days and havent been putting much smiles on his face. i've been making alot of mistakes and trying hard to be a better person to make tis relationship the best one i've ever been in coz he is so much different than the others and has been the best. i din mean to forget. its just that im sick today and havent got my mind at ease. i've said sorry to BF alot of times but still feel bad so i want to make it up to him by bringing him out. i forced him to scold me for fogetting and so he did. i ended up crying, i feel so guilty and bad. ive been a real bad GF, i really have been but it doesnt mean i forgot that i actually have a BF. i think of him all the time and always remember that im OWNED.

I LOVE MUHAMMAD SHAFIQ ALOT, I REALLY DO.

IM SORRY LOVE :'(

i love boyfriend very much

2009-12-28T07:52:00.000-08:00

The first time i saw you, my heart told me that you were the one.

you were the answer to my prayers cause i've been praying for a miracle to happen, and i got YOU.

i've learned that in life, you've got to be real patient to get what you really want. im pretty much proud that i waited and got you. it feels great to have you as a part of me.

you're my sun that brightens up my day when the rain starts to pour.

you're my moon that shines on me whenever it all turns dark.

it explains that you are always there for me whenever i need you.

that is one of the reason why I LOVE YOU.

whenever im with you, i try hard to not make you mad cause it hurts to see you all moody.

but my hearts beats so much faster whenever i see you smile.

that is one of the reason why I LOVE YOU.

sometimes its hard to handle you. you get so stubborn and make me hate you.

but when you call, you know how to win my heart back and soften it again.

that is one of the reason why I LOVE YOU.

sometimes i tell you that im not good in some things.

sometimes i tell you that i aint perfect.

sometimes i even ask why the hell do you love me.

you 'll say the sweetest things and tell me that you love me from the bottom of your heart, making me feel special.

that is one of the reason why I LOVE YOU.

you are my life. you hold the other half of my heart.

the happiest moments are the ones that i share with you.

i feel lost without you with me and thats why i need you all the time.

its hard to leave you at the end of each meet-up with you.

but den again,

im proud to be called you girlfriend and have YOU TO CALL MINE :)

i love my boyfriend very much.

MUHAMMAD SHAFIQ ; I LOVE YOU.

I SWEAR I DO.

apologies

2009-12-27T07:45:00.000-08:00

Sorry for the very long absence. been busy working. been working hard to find money for self. so today was my last day of work. hurhur. i want to find new work lah. i dowan to end up rotting at home and eating up my mum's money or bf's. hurhur. since bf quitted work abt last week, he has been so sweet to fetch me from work every single day altho he is under probation. i love him to death, i swear ! bf's already aslip coz he's starting work again tomorrow. he's being very hardworking to find money to support hys fam n ME ! :D

well, thats all for now. its already late and im not suppose to be sleepin late. heh. goodmorning all (:

Boo!

2009-12-06T12:28:00.000-08:00

Hello Earthlings. Im Iqek's, dyla good friend. I've been a good friend to help her update.
She wanted to delete her blog. Haiyah, banyak susah lah nie orang. You see the agirl beside dyla? Yeah, thats me. Wooo. Now dyla was already attached. Last long darling. Im here for you 24/7, just a phone call away. Dyla has been doing fine but life never complete with problems. So yeah, understand understood. If you want to know more about me, go to my blog. www.xanga.com/poppymoorey6. Okay, goodbyee. Takecare! :D

2009-10-20T19:38:00.000-07:00

Sorry i havent been updating, i've got no time and been busy with school.n PLUS ! no comp at home. And because of some ppl im taking out abit of my time from school to update tawuk.

I've got not much time to update ok. I need to finish up my work larh dey ! :D

oh ya ! one last thing ; SAYA DA BERPUNYA :)

MUHAMMAD SHAFIQ :D

NI DYLA PUNYE KAE (:

EVERY 8th ; DYLAEPIC !

slamat iye smua.

love you people.

take cares ! bye !

juani sapau tao

2009-06-30T08:55:00.000-07:00

( apoh sapau ! botak ! )

hello darlings !

sorry for not updating regularly.
been bz with some stuffs. heh (:
lyf's great like it has always been.
currently at ayu's place.
sliping over so tomorrow can help her with the sandwiches for sentosa.
so yesterday i went to town with appy&gang.
trained there with ayu&her ucuh but i dropped at orchard while dey dropped at somerset.
met dem at far east&followed dem to shop.
den wen they proceed to penin, i wen over to lucky plaza to miit ayu.
ate at RIA nasi ayam penyet with her ucuh n her grandma.

after eat, her ucuh wanted to go back so we went to miit appy&gang again.

went to marina since dey wanted to watch TRANSFORMERS.
too bad i din get to watch bcoz if i were to, i wun hav any money left to go home. :D
so slacked with them till abt 930 wen the movie starts den me&ayu wen hm.
trained hm n rched hm at abt 1020.
siang kn?! i know. heh.

dad's been moody this days coz i've been out too much.
im sorry aye daddy, ily :D
having some problems at home (?)
tkde cara peh jantan.
got no bloody respect for org tua. cb.
kena fuck jgk dier dgn abg aku. pfft !

k lah.
tats all. i'll update again soon aye.
taiikares darlings ! :D

MEMORIABLE.

2009-06-16T09:22:00.000-07:00

one word to describe last sunday was MEMORIABLE.

me, ayuu, ayu&mimi and faii wen to yishun to watch fireworks.
as usual, aku kn starkarat. heh.
dey waited for me till the sun wen down siol. haha.
but den dey still waited for me.
if dey were to go off ferz pun bende tu blum start.
so den we wen of to the padang and waited.
i told faii tt tis was my pressie for hym.
i paid $3,000 for the whole firewworks (:
padahal satu bunga api jek $3,000. hahahaa.
wen it started, we were mesmerized.
my gawd. B-E-A-U-T-IFUL siol !
hahaa. aft abt 15 mins, de thing ended n so we wen off.

i tot of gettin startbucks but den we girls ended up buying for faii a small cake.
wat i noe is wen i surprised hym wit the cake wit the candle on top, he was in shock.
i cud see it on hys face. we sang hym a bdae song n he told us he was touched.
it made us feel so proud to make hym feel tt wae. hurhur.
den each of us fed hym de cake, and he fed us back.
it was adorable.
we den took some pics and went off to lpk.
abt 10 ayuu wen off, den faii.
den abt 1045 me and ayu wen off.

tt sums up to my sunday.

i stayed at hm yesterday, as well as today.
aren't i a gudgerl. hurhur.
it kills stayin hm but ayu was dere to stay otp wit mr coz she din go out neither. hahahaa. (:

having plans tomorrow. ikot ayu jmpe degil.
tu pun maybe aku tag along lar kn.
tgk larh hw. saper2 klau tkde plans bsk, dipersilakn trun dwntwn jmpe dyla kae.
k larh. taiikares.

2 more days. APOH !

2009-06-13T09:33:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 18th BDAE TO

FAIIRUL A.K.A FAIIFLY

today is his 18th bdae.

though things aren't really quite the same nowadays,

suprisingly i remembered his bdae.

harap pnjg umur murah rezeki iye (:

it all felt awkward at first but we tell ourselves ure much2 happier now.

i know ure sad aft wat i'vetold u abt ayu, ayuu n myself.

don't take the wrong idea kae faii.

honestly, we are proud of u to own a GF,

u wanted one for quite some time n taadaa! ~

so we're giving u time to spent with her.

so, pls understand if we dun kol or text u at tymes.

i hope u'll last long wit sue ok.

i wish u both all the best n make sure u take good care of her.

anak dara org oi. (:

oh ya ! not to forget, she needs to come hg soon to miit all kae !!

SUE !!! NK JMPE :D

ALWAYS REMEMER ;

although we dun kol neither do we text,

u will alwaes be part of us (:

the laughter n joy u've bring.

i miss the sound of how hard u'd laugh tho.
so laugh hard wen we miit up soon aye darl? (:

u taiikares now.

faiirul da makin tua. gegek ~

we love&miss you loads aye brother :D

DAA~

HELLO !

2009-06-08T06:49:00.000-07:00

Im sooo soooo sorry for my VERRRRRY long absence aye. hurhur.
my comp at home is down and vey lazy to update at someone else's place.
but since im at ayu's place and im in the mood to update.... so yah.

lyf is great but there arent exciting things that happened.

last monday big sister had a bike accident. the blame was all to be put on the lady who drove the car. stoopid fuck. heh. luckily she had only minor injuries yet she feels alot of pain. aduh !

MUM's bdae was yesterday and the whole fam went to MARINA, we ate at SEOUL GARDEN.luckily we haven't got our breakfast coz since it was 'pay and u can eat as much as u wan' kinda thing, everyone was eating so much. my dad was kinda funny tho. hurhur.

me and my bbygirls are as close as ever but for ilaabell, she's been missing from the 'family' for the mean time.

FAIIFLY has a new gerlfren. tho it feels awkward, im proud of u. last long aye darls.

im back in contact with tt someone. he confessed to me yesterday nyte and i knew he was gonna do it yesterday aft asking if i was attch. hmmm.... the feeling within me towards him isn't really there yet but i tik im gonna fall in love soon. heh !

apoh da masok NS. kt tekong, dkt jek klau nk fetch. but so not gonna for some reasons :)

my fringe is hightlighted white(?) i tink. :D

well i've got nothing else to say for now. i'll update again if i have the time yea.
KEH BYE !!

i TINK im inlove.

2009-04-16T07:03:00.001-07:00

so he read my blog.

it came to my surprise that he actually bothered to read my blog.

i appreciate all the ans you've given me.

it gave me a relief of wat u have said.

i tot u wud put it in a negative way but u didn't.

i was wrong. i was touched ans i ended up crying and alot of things wen tru my mind.

thank you dear.

(tis is in green coz he likes green. i don know if he still does.)

i was surprise someone else cried aft reading my blog.

AYUU did. hahah.

well, it was all from my heart. i had to put it all out in a way.

writing it here was the best way i cud tink of.

my ite bbys said it was sweet and they even asked me what he replied.

i told them onoly the parts they needed to know. hahah.

tomorrow is to go Marina to celebrate AKY's bdae with all braders.

saturday, klau ader duit tmn fad g uat bende. hahaha.

k lah, pape text aye bbys. bye&taiikares !

2009-04-15T09:18:00.000-07:00

never i tot in a million yrs i wud start to miss you again.

i tot i got over you for good but i was wrong.
it started in a sudden, YOU suddenly came to my mind.
it felt awkward and wrong coz we've made a decision to leave and never to bother each other EVER again.
but to think back, its never wrong to miss YOU. or issit?

im thinking ;

wat u are doin ryte now.(?)

wat u are thinking at this moment.(?)

wat song are u singing right now with the voice i miss most.(?)

are you sneezing the way i lyk it during the cold sleepless nytes.(?)

are u still playing that football game in the middle of the night, whr u'd scream GOAL! everytyme u score tho its ald 3+ am in the morning and i'd scold u coz ibu and the rest are slipping.(?)

do you still need someone otp with you while you switch off all de front lights

to accompany you coz u nvr feel right in the middle of the night.(?)

wat wud u be thinking if u were to read this post.(?)

most importantly ;

are u still holding on to the spongebob tho it was for ur sister as her b'dae present or have u thrown that aside.(?)

i wish you were here to ans all dis qns for me coz the ans are all in you.

if i were to sae that i dun miss you, i'd be lying to myself.

overall, thinking of u makes me sick in the stomach coz im missing u (alot?)

which im not sure why. pfft (!)

'THINKING OF YOU' sure reminds me of YOU.

it sucks to think of someone from your past.
its pretty heartbreaking.
i guees, second best is all i will know.
i guess, i'd put you in my FEAR list coz i fear of seeing you.
whenever i see YOU, it kills me.
don't worry, i'll be trying hard to forget you again ok.
but i hope this time round it wun take me another year aye darls.

to YOU; if you see me around you, try not to make urself seen by me, cn? ((:

YOU taiikares kae. imy :S

2009-04-15T08:31:00.000-07:00

VERRY SORRRY for my long absence.

i've been really lazy to switch on the comp.

my hols were great. i had spend time wit every single important person in me. (not all actually)

my sis is married. n f.y.i, i cn still shed a tear wenever i see any of her wedding pics.

it was quite disappointing since quite alot of my friends i jemput paitao. tkpe (:

MEO was dere, surprisingly he did came.

i wanted to jemput one of my ex coz he knows my mum n sis, tap mcm tk tersmpi hati gitu. idk lah.

it all wen smoothly, ALHAMDULLILLAH :D

sch's reopen for 3 days now. i miss my class very much and hell, my sch punyer larh ramai org.

aduh ! rimas nyer larh ye. pretty much familiar faces were seen all around. hurhur.

N oh ya, i just got to find out a guy's name in sch. dier slenge n tk hensem but hys kiut and de way he is makes me fall. hurhur !

watever larh ye. :D

thats all i gotta post for now. nothing much really. taiikares aye (:

IM OFF AT 12.05 (:

2009-03-22T03:49:00.000-07:00

MY goodness, im sorry for my very long absence. hurhur.
im too lazy n plus my comp's down.

SO HOLS JUST STARTED !! 3 weeks, ENJOY ar aper agik ! :D

so far, nothing much has happened.
BUT !! kakak getting married this weekend !!
WEE~ im soo excited altho its not my wedding but i bet u guys can feel what im feeling aye.
planning to wear pink but still not sure yet. aduh ! :D
mother told me not to invite too many friends, but i tink i did.
tk sengaje ! :D

ystdae i wen to tiong to amek something from appy n to miit bdk2 SATRIO.
nari drg ader kluar dkt jurong but too bad i am to stay hm 2dae.
so aft miiting dem, me and ayu proceed to p.r naek train.
&oh ya, i saw someone alighting from the train i was in.
someone i had a little crush on before, don wan to elaborate lah ok (:
i texted hym, to make sure it was really hym. he replied n so it was hym. hmm.

da smpi p.r, byk yg terjad ! jmpe ayuu&lyna at inter plus fad&mimi&sadat.
den waited for fai. den we drove off to somewhr in p.r.p.
aduh ! kecoh. smua gone. huakhuak. (:
abt 10, ayuu&lyna wen hm.
at 11+, fad sent me hm. i din wan to bother him but he insisted since ayu din wanna go hm n i was all alone n not 'myself'.
dlm kerete drg kacau aku, bdh ! hurhur. chiiibye (:
i thank fad lyk, 1,2,3,4 times? tah , tk igt. hehee.
balik tros gone, heheheheeheh.

da ar, nk siap. nk jmpe ayu.
wanna grab a bite at subway.
i'll update again soon aye, INSYALLAH (:
taiikares smua.

2009-02-18T00:17:00.000-08:00

im sorry for being away dis days.
im busy wit sch's stuffs, alot of projects larh.
plus, my comp's down.

as im in sch nw so y not post something, apologise for my disappearence. (:
well, i gotta start with work again. nk kasi abes project fast2.

WILL BE AWAY FOR A WEEK MORE I THINK.
I'LL UPDATE A.S.A.P OK (:
taiikares hunneh(s).
text me if there is anything aye babies, i wun be checking my blog larh ok.
bye ! :D

2009-02-03T06:32:00.000-08:00

IM IN LOVE WIT SOMEONE NEW.
tk bleii dan tknk blang saper kae.
HYS WAYYYY BETTER THAN de matrep (:
ryte ayu stripper?

aku nk spent tyme agik dgn dier boleyyy?
rindu dier larh seii, sesgt xD

KEHBYE ! WANSUEY !

2009-02-01T04:05:00.000-08:00

i remembered that tyme we were on the phone.
we were excited for 2009.
the most important part of the talked was that we planned for something special for that special day.
i thought it'd really happened but we've gone too far in our seperate ways.
last week was akward, i kept seeing ur face.
for 3 straight days.
i cn see u change with just a look at your face really.
im not judging, i jst noe u too well.

my heart hurts wen i keep seeing ur face.
trust me, i wanna avoid u real bad.
u cn, y cnt i ryte?

im proud of myself&disappointed of u.
proud coz i've moved on&never thinking of u.
disappointed coz wat i see of u now is not my ex.
i noe ppl chnge but u chnge too much.
alot of people agree wit me. even some of ur FRENS.
i dun wanna drag dis post long2 coz i dun wan ppl to tink im still not over u.

oh people, im proud to say ;

I AM OVER THAT 'MAT-REP'.

which i dun know who he is anymore.

2009-02-01T03:30:00.000-08:00

BAHHAHAHA!

hello all (:
im very happy for de past 2 days.

on FRI, i finished sch at 10 so i wen back straight.
den i met her at her place at 4+. met ayuu 1st at bustop,
waited for ayu n grace to come dwn coz nk beli redbull.
da beli, we all wen up to ayu's crib. den all masok bilik adam.
aku masok, VODKA&WHISKEY kt tgh2 bilik 'ALFARO' xD
so i played de comp ferz den joined dem inside de room.
baru masok, ayu da mabok, wah CB. ayuu drank too but she wasnt as bad as ayu.
MY GAWD ! huakhuak.
she was alredi drunk, yet had de hart to mit 'IQ'. meeek, masai siak ayu jmpe laki.
it was troublesome really, but i love her so much i'd do anything for her. hahaaa xD
rched hm b4 11 tt dae. gud gerl (:

ystdae, kakak bought me new hp kt tamp, LG viewty PINK. xD
kesian kn adek nyer psl, hp tk tertukar for da nk masok 3 tahun.
hahaha. so i was happy wit my choice tho its abit troublesome.
den proceed to ayu's crib, kenduri arwah atuk dier.
den biyol, aja&mimi pun smpi.
wen in adam's room, 'bersembang'. hahaa.
da gitu, ayu decided to go see chingay.
so waited for all to get ready.
rchede dere, a whole pack da nk balik.
kte aru smpi. hurhur.
so den we decided to ton marina, dey all wanted to drink.
we shared so much laughter&i bonded better wit grace, adam&hafiz.
it was great. den we took NR6 from clarke quay to ayu's place.
slept dere 4 abt 5-6 hrs den i wen back hm n slip.
it was great. pics will be up wen i've received dem from GRACY BABY xD ok?

tts all for 2dae. taiikares dearestssss.

2009-01-29T07:25:00.000-08:00

hello dearestsss (:
it thurs&nothing's quite happened.

on tues i wen out to slack wit ayu, jepon, degil.
met dem at dwntwn mac. den tggu bob&elfi.
dpt tau aku ikot drg go minom. n oh ! i DO NOT drink (:
lepak kt p.ris park to drink.
me&degil sat aside, tgk drg minom. dun reli noe the reason y he wasnt drinking tt day.
keje aku, ketawe kn si kecik tu. well, overall she's de one to be laughed at.
huakhuak. bob kate joget tektonik baru siols.
bob agik, took a shot tros muker cramp gyler siols.
aku dgn ayu ape agik, ketawe ar siols.
kuat siak. hahahak !
den smua tknk bgn.
at last, at abt 1015 i stood up sae nk balik. da gitu smua baru bgn. aduh !
jln balik dwntwn, aleh2 bob joget tektoniik. FUNNY SIA !
smpi aku dgn ayu ketawe terbareng2 siols. xD

tgh jln nmpk KAK NOR !! aduh ! da braper tahun tk nmpk dier.
sial ! sumpah peluk mcm 10 tahun tk jmpe. chat wit her awhile exchnge n.os n walked off.
i took 89 back while de rest antar ayu go inter naek 88.

wed, nothing much happened. wen to sch from 10-6.
ape aku tau, alik tros tdo. kepale pusing2.
den mlm jmpe khai.
tts all.

just now, had class from 9-5.
in class, hp rang. i totally forgot to silent my hp.
everyone was looking. picked it up.
ayu ckp dier otw skola aku. huakhuak.
she waited for me till 5 dgn ayuu.
trun, saw dem wit bell. den lpk jap kt skola tggu org den go hm.

(including ILAABELL larh kae :)

well, tts all i'd be updating. tkde pape larh yg geyrek.
kt skola jek cmner. huakhuak.
well, tts it for 2day darlings.

taiikares dearestsss. xD

2009-01-26T07:28:00.000-08:00

SLUTS with no lyf.
i haven been entertain u n ur gerls since, ____?? i dun rmbr.
pfft, tryin to pull my best bitch's name down.
get the facts right. she aint de one jealous, u are. n she aint the one pulling the guys awae from u.
EXCUSE ME, she aint nothing lyk u.
at least she doesnt go ard guys lyk u gerls do. PFFT !
i dun get it. tryin to put all the blame on her wudn't make it any better. f.y.i aye?
my bitch is right, u are de one yg terhegeh2 kn tt typical jerk.
somemore bleii salahkn kwn aku for hym not layaning u. padahal laki tu yg lyn kwn aku. hah.

i dun get whr u&ure gerls are gg u noe.

since u guys posted it on ur blog, y not us kn.

tap klau btol2 nyer tk puas hati, kte settle kn face to face kae.

its not 'gadoh psl laki'. its abt ' ko tryin to burukkn namer kwn aku just bcoz of a guy'
i'll giv u a suggestion ;

its either u get the facts right and to realise she aint in the wrong

try toking shits abt her again n i'll give u gerls a tatse of HELL.

nk? COZ I MEAN IT.

2009-01-26T05:36:00.000-08:00

HELLO DEARESTSSS.

saturday was a blast wit bbygurls; AYUU, AYU&MAIE.

outings wit dem is nvr a bore.

it's alwaes full off laugh-ur-ass-out thing u noe.

i got stomach crampsystdae for laughing so much + from while performing SNW. hahaa.

saper2 nk join kte? hehee (:

oh ya, talked for lyk 5 mins wit AHKY ystdae nyte.

appy called me n had hym on de other line.

terpranjat dok terdgr suare dier.

aduh ! ryndu gyler babi sak.

padehal baru terpk psl dier on sat while waiting for drink at starbucks luar pizzahut kt marina.

terigt 4 org ddk kt dlm pizzahut mkn pizza sesame. hurhur.

tk sangka plak dier da hmleave.

so 2dae stayed hm de whole dae, abg n fam dtg so i jage my anak sedare(s).

aduh ! auntie dyla (!) sini sane. penat layan karena2 dorang.

dorang da balik. sunyi plak rumah. haha.

hav plans for 2morrow but was hoping to miit up wit ahky n de rest at tiong.

i'll see hw 2morrow turns out.

tts all for now.

taiikares dearestsss. xD

excuse me for my ugly/masai face kae (:

2009-01-21T00:42:00.000-08:00

BOO ~! wahahahaa.
aku da tk betol. xD

niwaes, in sch ryte now. nk kene uat proposal tap i sit aside update blog jap. hahaha.
so, LIMAU&ME da ok. xD
i feeel much better but errr, i feel guilty coz i wanna stop cntcting dis guy.
its not bcoz of LIMAU.
i feel awkward at tymes while msging hym. it doesnt feel ryte.
so before it goes any futher, im planning to stop entertaining hym.
to whoever, IM VERY2 SORRY if ever ure reading tis.

so lyf's MUCH better tis days for some reasons. hahah.
doing very well in sch tho. i've been very attentive and ON withwork.
my class has been closer den ever. we're much more united now then before.
its fun and dere's alot of talkative ppl in class including me. :D
well, tts all i gotta sae for now. i'll update more soon okay.
taiikares dearestsss (:

ITE BABIES.

US wit 'ABG' KHAI :D

dearestssss; NANA, RAUDAH, NADRAH&SHIDA (:

ni larh raudah. my minah-rep dlm class. dun dare mess wit her bitches !!

syggggggggg raudah, minta maaf ! :D

2009-01-13T07:04:00.000-08:00

im bored so imma just do a random post. huakhuak !xD

so ive been tru some shits&im feeling better now since

ayu's chattin wit me. hurhur.

we're doing some stuffs gerl's alwaes do ; GOSSIP !

hurhur.

dere's alot of topics to be said. hee.

not just abt gerls u noe. guys too.

obviously we aren't toking abt gudgerls neither gudboys.

it'd be such a boring topic, wudn't it?

we're tokin abt SLUTS&JERKS xD

its a pity to see or hear stories abt dis particular bunch of people.

i dunnoe hw our lyfs cn actually affect dem so much !

but we just sit back&relax. we'll wait dis their mouths get tired aye ayu?

hurhur.

but trust me, u wund't want to go over de limit xD

well., there's too much too be said.

i dun wanna continue nnt org terase plak.

just doing dis to tell ppl tt having tis type of conv. wit my bestsys cn put a wide smile on my face.

wow ! xD

(to whoever who is hurt or feeling dwn, try it. tell me hw it turns out aye :) )

well., tts all i gotta sae. we've got alot more to chat abt.

i'll update soon aye. taiikares babies (:

2009-01-11T08:05:00.000-08:00

i wanna be the girl you think about being with forever.

2009-01-08T08:01:00.000-08:00

to hym; i noe u noe who u are.

just hope ure reading dis.

it was stoopid to start an argument by a stoopid topic.
stakat siak ! haish.

aku tk tau ar, dier maseh tk paham prasaan aku.
u nvr gave in&u alwaes wanted to win. satisfied enough?

we're nothing but yet we fight as tho we have something gg on.

i noe 2 yrs is not easy to forget, so i din mean de things i've said ok.

i was mad&grumpy. i was having moodswings. u shud hav known.

countless tymes hav we fought.

countless tymes hav we exchange vulgarities.

im sad, disappointed&hartbroken to see someone i loveD so much turn into someone i dun even noe.

even aft 2 yrs, u've turn into a NEW YOU which i pretty much dislike.

i've had de feeling u wud change into who u are now

but nvr did i actually tot u wud. so i was wrong huh.

3-4 pails of tears hav i wasted on u, pfft ~

u nvr knew coz u've nvr see me cry. coz i din wan u too.

wanna noe y? coz i noe u wun bother.

i noe im nothing but u r something.

its true u've hurt me countless of tymes but yet ure still treasured deep in me.

i dunnoe y but im typing all dis down.

i dun wan to but sometymes i shud follow wat my hart tells me to do.

i hope all dis wud end soon. i dun wish to drag dis FAR coz

we've gone too, too far to stop.

im expecting something&tt is an apology.

i've apologised sincerly.

wen's ur turn ?

i'll be waiting.

2009

2009-01-06T08:55:00.000-08:00

so its a NEW YEAR.
new school, new friends.
its lyk being in sec one all over again.
JUST tat de school's much more bigger and tt dere are MORE ppl ard.
rase rimas siak kt skola., hurhur.

so 1st dae of school., i came in late (:
i was abt half an hr late. heh.
wen in class n everybody was staring.
i sat dwn n my CA was telling us stuffs abt our course n all.
CA bbl srg., smua tknk jwb.
da mcm zombie siak smua. (:
den we had our orientation n all.
skola finish at 4.

tad skola abes kul 1 whereas yg laen abes kul 4.
heheee. got our books n lockers.
had fun tad in sch coz we got to noe more abt de class n stuffs.
KHAI made de whole class more lively.
aft sch bought my baju2 all den wen back alone.
now here i m blogging.
tired lor. nk slip., da kul 1.10 seii.
nk kene bgn kul 8 ni.
class starts at 10 smpi 6 sia. OMG ~!

k larh., i go sliip ferz aye.
taiiakres dearestsss.
i miss my GFs !

dyla sygg si dier tu ~

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

2009-01-03T08:49:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL !!!

i noe its kinda late 4 tt but i was busy n din have tyme to update. hee :D
so yah., countdown was a BLAST !

it was de best ever. WAY BETTER than de one before.

at 8pm ayu&mia came over to my hs to get redi.
we took sucha long tyme to finish. hahaa. mcm nk g maner gituk.
den met irah.,adek mia at bustop den tros proceed dwntwn.

met FAD&CO at MAC. den MAIE came dgn SUE.
sat dwn awhile., chat2 while waitin 4 shiira&faii.
RIBUT SIOL ! tkbleii tashaaaaaaaan ! =D
den shiira came den she wen off awhile nk amek faii den faii came.
for de ferz tyme jmpe dier. aft long convs on9., dpt jgk jmpe. hahaa.

so den smua da bising suroh Q so we all stood up n Q larh.

ADUH ! punyer larh pnjg. hahaaa.
pnt aku berdiri. at last masok entry which was actually 4 NEBOians jek.
dpt lps jgk. masok jek lek2 kt tepi den start cntdwn.
lps tu jek lagu2 start ! FUUH !
aper agik. smua pmpn aku masok ar siol. hahaa.
lagu 12-3., 12-3 jgk kte joget. hahaa.
da kene ___ tros diam siak smua. :D
FUH ! met alot of ppl tt dae. NK LAGIK!!!

MIND MY UGLY MASAI FACE AYE(:

no more of wat had happened okae.

cause i care&love u lyk a syster.

we got too close&nvr did i have any intention of losing u anytyme soon.

systers always&forever aye(:

ILY BITCH., ALOT.

2009

2008-12-30T09:20:00.000-08:00

sorry 4 not posting lately. hee.
had been real lazy n im busy n got no tyme 4 de comp.
so yah., i got into ITE COLLEGE EAST. ramai jgk yg aku knl msk saner.
ADUH ! ader ajer. (:

so just had my chalet 2 days baq. it wen smoothly larh.
bagus. minom peh larh byk. its good tt i dun drink. hurhur.
ayu mabok da cm org kene sawan. haha. aleh ketawe non-stop. xD
BUT den, ader hal plak si gangster2.
ader mate lembam lar., tu larh ni larh. kesian !
stress aku tgk drg. hee.
ALOT of unexpected ppl yg dtg chalet.
i din mind de unexpected abe aleh2 bace dewi nyer blog., bbl kwangajar.
padehal kte tk ckp pape abe bbl tu mcm. puas ati tk yah tunjuk muker.
tol? (:
aku tk paham ar dek ni. ADUH !

so i got baq at 8., tros tdo.
bgn, mandi, tros carik mkn. LAPAAR ! sbb kt chalet muntah smua (:

bsk nk kene report ITE.
ADUH ! cnfm byk muker yg aku kenal.
k larh ., gtg.
meh kte countdwn samer2 yerrr kt DWNTWN. (:
i'll see some at 1130 kae kt saner.
JOM2! kte have fun !

TAIIKARES dearest(s)
BYE.

(updated; 31 dec 1.32am)

PISSED.

2008-12-23T09:08:00.001-08:00

BOLEII NAEK GYLER AR !

mcm gini. aduuuuuuui !
why? why u tell me? what wrong did i ever do to u?

SHIT HAPPENS. *sobsob.

PROMOTED.

2008-12-20T08:01:00.001-08:00

HELLO LOVELIES. (:

sorry for de quite long absence. been very bz larh. FADZZAL IMMAN's away.

i guess he's at KL? GENTING? by now. idk.

niwaes., i got my results on the 18th&not reli satisfied wt it.

BUT., i was so shocked that i got promoted to SEC 5. hahaa.

i din noe how i got promoted., my results sux !

as i failed my MATHS., i missed de opportunity to have de advantage to choose NURSING.

pfft ! i wanted it but its ok though. got some choices that i actually wanted.

OFFICE&TOURISM. got it !

yesterday., had ABIT of sister tyme wit KAKAK. we had our nails done&i slept at her fiance's hs wit her.

we went to LAU PA SAT at 9. wen dere by car.i was de youngest., lyk duh !

i felt so akward but wasnt so after i started to chat along wit them.

aft out late dinner., wen back to 'brother-in-law's' place&applied for ITE. (:

den was soo mad at someone., he spoilt my mood. so i switched off de comp&went to bed.

today woke up at 9., siap2 den wen for breakfast at MAC wit sys&fiance.

wen back., sys make-up kn while i slept at 1.15. i had my alarm at 2.

so den i woke up., tukar baju smua den wen out. reached dere abt 3+.

had fun. & guess who i saw. lyk OMG ! i saw my ex., irwan.

damn ! byk2 org dier sak kener. hurhur.

dier dgn aida cm biase. lamer plak drg kn, surprisingly. heh (:

den i helped some to put KUDA on&lots more.

&all tid leads to me being very eager to join KUDAKEPANG.

but im not allowed to. sad2. *sighs* watever !

was proud of LOLLI though she mabok half-way jek for de 1st tyme.

she's trying., it wun be long. (:

den last2., saw biyol dere&he called me over.

chat abit&he asked me wat tyme im going baq&stuffs. so wen baq wit hym.

took the bus 15 to pasir ris&took 109 baq. saket hati but fun larh berdue/balik dgn dier. haha.

so he tmn me at bustop to wait for bus., hehe. kekek lurh.

den boarded de bus n here i m ; sitting, blogging wit sleepy eyes.

well., i tink imma end here. im reli tired. i lack of sleep.

stayin home 2morrrow? not sure. hahaa.

LASTLY., I MISS FADZZAL IMMAN.

2008-12-01T07:48:00.000-08:00

SOMEONE ASKED ME IF I MISSED YOU ;

I DIDNT ANSWER.

I JUST CLOSED MY EYES&WALKED AWAY.

THEN I WHISPERED ;

"SO MUCH." ):

who it refers to;

it a secret :D

booyah ~!

2008-11-24T09:39:00.001-08:00

HELLOHELLO (:

so yah., i got my pay on de 22nd. i got a total of $335 !
rajin tao dyla kerje. jgn pandang rendah ehk. i maeb lazy but look ! i proved u all wrong xP
but den, i havent spent abit of my own money 4 myself. gave alot to my fam.
smua dgr dyla gaji., smua pinjam. dyla tk lokek tao, dyla bagi (:
tad werk., masok kul 6 tap report kul 615 abe gaji start 630. cb kn manager. pfft !

planning to shop ! dere's so much in my list but gonna, ehk bkn2 HAVE to ! cut it short bcoz booking chalet 4 next mth. saper2 intrested, nak trun., text me aye (:
&as usual., i gotta kiip de money 4 my daily expenses. hmph !
lets put money&WERK aside., tired !

well., lyf's has alwaes been de same. my family&frens r alwaes dere 4 me.
ryte nw im in a quest of searching tt someone i've regretted leaving.
but i gotta wait till next 2 saturdays, tts wen hys gonna get have hys hmleave.
i wish i cn at least see hys face&i swear i'll smile all dae. even in my slip !

watched kude kepang last sat. gg again dis sat&maeb dis sun too (:
da tersangkut lurh knknkn. saper nk ikot dyla? geyrek sgt lurh tgk org mabok xD
oh yesss., i've cut my fringe&i regret seriously.
haha. tknk tunjuk krg., bluek ! xP

k lurh., got nothing else to write.
oh yah !
to SHIRA., imy. tried to cntct u but cnt. cntct me asap kae !

TAIIKARE EARTHLINGS (:

booyah ~!

2008-11-24T09:39:00.000-08:00

LOVE&PATIENCE.

2008-11-19T08:26:00.000-08:00

LOVE aint just abt hw gorgeous or charming u look.
its hw yoo are in de inside.

i've come across alot of LOVE dis daes.
not me but ;

FAMILY. FRENS. ORDINARY PPL I NOE? yea (:

deres dis guy, whose fallen 4 dis gerl.
wit alot of patience in hym, he waited.
waiting patiently for a year is reli hardwerk for some particular reason.
having to see her around 'others' makes hym sick but just bcoz of LOVE, he waits.
in de end, he got to noe something. something tt reli hurt hym.
he tried to describe it to me hw painful it was, he was trying so hard but i told hym tt its ok coz i reli do understand hw he feels.
its lyk u've been stabbed, n tts hw bad it feels.
waiting 4 a year bcoz of some particular reasons n in de end he got tis.
wat was he short of tt de guy has? i cud feel de love he was trying to shower u wid.
i guess ur love just wasnt meant for hym. i respect ur decision gerl.
wen i got to noe she was wit some1 else., i pitied tis guy alot coz he told me how deep he has fallen for her.
& hell i bet its gonna leave a mark in hym&it'll take alot of tyme for hym to stop thinking of her.

recently, i told hym things to help hym stop thinking of her, to comfort hym. he told me he wans to miit her but some parts of hym tells hym not to n he told me he din noe y. i told hym i knew y.
i tot back&i learn de situation he was reli in. i told hym ;

'u love her too much u don wanna interfere in her relationship&therefore u'd step back n let her live her life fully wit some she's fallen for n tt whom she reli loves rather than u interferring in her relationship n seeing her hurt n tt'll lead to u being hurt too seeing her cry.'
he saed it was true. tts hw he is feeling.

to whom im reffering tis to., i noe u noe who u are.
im supporting u to 4get her&just to make ur lyf easier n less miserable.
n to her if she does noe who she is, im doing tis coz i love u n i reli wan u to noe wat he reli feels of u tt i shud have told u earlier. im sorry love.

ive got to accpt it., sadly.

2008-10-23T07:50:00.000-07:00

me&MAIE.

me&dearest sister

DAD'S side.

(sorry, no pic of mum's side.)

Im so sorry 4 de very late update. i was too bz&honestly was really lazy.
HARI RAYA was a blast. it was de usual. everyone gathered&i felt so happy.

it feels great to be ard everyone tt i love most.

ive found a job n it pays me $6 per hr wit KILLA&AYU.

it's tiring., as usual. which job isnt tiring ryte.

everything else is fyne.

apart 4rm tt., stoopid things have been happening, its really SAD tho.

ALOT of tears have been shed. its really heartbreaking.

FRIENDS leaving me one by one.

i dun understand some things.

sometymes little things cn get SOO big tt it'll make us hate each other so much.

i tot baq., i've tried so many tymes n yet im still tokin to hym.

i admit., his my hardest goodbye.

i cnt., coz we have too much memories.

but im trying nw&its taken me soo much tyme, soo much tears.

im taking bby steps&i sooo dun care hw long its gonna take coz i noe if i do get over hym., its gonna mean so much to me.

AHKY dearest.

AHKY dearest is in remand 4 3 weeks.

den on 11 NOV he'll niid to go to court again.

its only been one dae&im missing hym lyk soo much.

mcm maner agaknyer kn klau nnt apape jad kt dier., aduiii. ):

i have a feeling dis somebody is slowly leaving me too.

hasnt received anything from hym.

no msgs., no calls. NOTHING.

i dunnoe y but alot is laeving me 4 idk wat reason.

sheeesh. we've been close since idk wen but i reli lyk being close to hym.

i rmmbr every sweet moment tt we've spent. haish.

lastly., de one i spent most of my tyme wit otp or either hanging out is avoiding me.

i guess she's leaving me too. i dun mind coz i noe she got LOTS more frens.

i guess she's closing de chapter of ME&HER n opening a new one wit someone else.

its ok coz watever it is im glad i found a fren lyk her.

i guess tts all i gotta sae.

alot of things have been going tru my mind&ive tot alot.

i cn live w/o dis ppl., de ppl i loveD alot.

i dun mind being alone coz i believe MIA&AYUU is here 4 me&especially APPY.

i've got so much to worry now.

taiikares everyone.

RAYA LARH RAYA ~!!!!

2008-09-29T10:19:00.000-07:00

ryte nw., its 1.19 am&its 30th of sept.

BSK RAYA !!

nk raya nk raya !!

i wan de kemeriahan feeling again.

i wan the whole BIGBIG family 2gether again. kn best? knknkn MAIE?

i wan take soo many picS&upload 4 ya'll to see hw kecoh we are de 1st dae of raya. hahaa.

best nyer. haa.

well., wen to geylang 4 lyk de .. tyme. i dunnoe. tk terkire.

wen wit mummy&siblings. our aim is to buy alas meja&HENNA ! hee.

did threading too. bleii tashan ar. tk saket sgt. sedap agik ader. heh.

ok., so everthing at hm is nearly done.
my room's still in a mess coz its hard to be seen clean with make-up appliances all over de place.

anak dara., kakak werk, i sch. hw? heh !

ltr during the afternoon, gonna do all the LEFT-OVER chores&clean my room.

not gg sch&either are ALL my GFs. hahaa. attitude lerr smua.

maeb., gg geylang 4 de LAST tyme. MAEB jek.

ryte nw., henna really dry ald but wanna wait till i wake up to wash it off.

limit2 bgn da berkecah smua. heh.

oh yea., i've to do wat i really wan to do de most&tt is to 4get hym.

i cnt&im very sorry GFs. i cnt really find de reason y.

& YA !! great news !!

my ex., FIRDAUS is baq !

gotta noe juz now. i wen in frenster&suddenly saw hys profile last login 24 hrs.

aper agik., view ar !!

gotta noe., he was sent IN. btul ke tk aku ckp.haha.

nw having hys hm leave. i miss hym larh seii.

taiikares kae dearest. bleah ~!

K DONE !! im done posting 4 2dae. ya'll taiikare yarr. bye !!

tolong tolong !! FADZZAL IMMAN LARH SEII ! xD

MATREP ALERT ! haha., jkjk :D

KEHBYE!

my HEART ACHES bcoz of u.

2008-09-26T05:54:00.000-07:00

why me? its awaes me.

im awaes de one tts being, well., hurt.

&guess wats de most interesting thing of it is, i get heartaches 4rm de same person over&over again.

i kiip gettin trapped in hys LOVE shit.

i cnt deny his one of a JERK/ASSHOLE but still, i kiip searching 4 hym. which i sooo HATE.

ohGOD., why hym? i din tot it cud turn dis ugly.

if u guys tink its jealousy., its not. i gave hym so much&yet all i get is shit.

i wish so much i cn move on., escape 4rm dis misery.

its hard but im proud tt hys moved on coz i reli don wanna stick to hym 4ever.

he made me realise alot.

i kiip being hys victim, being stabbed. it hurts., truly it does.

it hurts 2 sae goodbye but its de best thing to do.

i dunnoe hw much deeper he cn hurt me.

i kiip avoiding myself 4rm u but i cnt

i feel empty but i've never felt tis free.

i din tink i wud miss u tis much but admit i do.

i cnt pretty much describe hw i feel but my heart is really aching.

i hope very much i cn 4get u., NW&4EVER.

i noe i have my GF's&especially myself to get tru dis.

its gonna take heck of a long tyme. i swear.

ppl sae u'd come baq begging but i doubt so.

uu cn jolly well save all ur FUCKING tyme 4 de gerl kae.
i wish u all de best to fuck her. oops ! i mean., get her.

let her feel hw i used to feel., pfft ~

tears fall as i sae dis., coz i've nvr stopped loving u.

im just waiting., waiting patiently for KARMA to hit yoo coz i believe in it.

sell me candy.

2008-09-23T08:04:00.000-07:00

aft wat had happened 2dae in sch made me hav a flashback abt hw WE started.

tru thick&thin WE wen tru 2gether., de LOT of misunderstandings tt WE had.

whoever tt kept coming in., WE still sticked 2gether.

de ups&downs&de sacrifices WE made 4 each other.,

it showed so much of hw WE loved&cared 4 each other.

somehw., i nvr listen to wat my FRENS sae/advice me abt U.

i kept quiet. i never did stopped loving U.

tho U've hurt me enough., i kept 4giving U. tt was my mistake.

making U step over me., but still it din make me stop loving U.

weird ain't it? pfft~

sometymes it hurts thinking of U coz i know very much U've moved on.

it started, 140206&nvr did i rmmbr wen WE ended bcoz it NEVER did. or did it?

im not telling U i wan U back. im juz telling U ;

I'LL BE HERE 4 YOU.

i'll stay&i'll hold U close.
WE've been tru too much tt i cnt let go.

B., iMISSyou.

KHAIRULANWAR <3

its never wrong to miss my EX., rytte?

2008-09-22T08:22:00.000-07:00

FIRDAUS.

III MMIISS YYOOUU. BADLY. :'(

2008-09-22T07:14:00.000-07:00

sorry 4 late update. i was bz&din have tyme 2 update.
tis daes, hav been studyin&also having fun at de same tyme.
on fri wen to marina. AHKY blanje. TQ yarr darls. ate PIZZA HUT.
kenyang gyler. leftovers., gave em' to APOH&de rest.

on sat., wen out wit ayu's family. had fun tho.
felt de bond btween UCUH&IBU.
on sun., stayed hm. took care of my sick IBU during de afternoon.
den at abt 5++, MOTHER called asked to come down coz we wanted to go aunty's place at woodlands to breakfast.
my heart felt heavy to leave my IBU alone at home coz de rest wen to JB.
left her., abt 630 called her to check up on her. de rest haven got hm yet.
aft breakfast, called again. de rest rched hm at 650 lyk tt.
ate lontong&bubur. den chilled&ate chocolate tt ive brought 4rm hm while watchin 2 fast 2 furious. hee.
at 9 wen hm, naek taxi sbb FATHER nk tgk bola.
otp wit APPY den slept at 12++. tired.

2dae., i skipped sch. well., alot did. :D
woke up at 935am, suprisingly. hurhur.
wen out at 1030am to sent my IBU 2 the polyclinic to pull out her stiches. OUCH~!
just to walk dere took abt 20 mins coz IBU sick mah, kaki lemah. pity her loads.
den she degil, ikot peg COMPASS POINT. she wanted to buy smething.
me&MOTHER terpakse tmn her lor.
den wen baq at abt 1215, she tros BAAMM ! bareng. hehee. kiut larh she.

i wen hm& slept 4 lyk 30mins den KHAIPENDEK called.
terpakse bgn, siap. 4got 2dae got plan.
so he came over my hs., waited 4 MOTHER to rch hm den go out.
called ayu den met at hg. go do her eyebrows den off to play pool. gegek.
yeye nk blaja. played till 4++ den took bus wen baq to sgkg.
ayu bought hp strap at 77th st den we walked off to a void deck near my place 2 study.
den abt 640 made our way to buy bubble tea den off to my place.
breakfast den dey wen off. KHAI wen baq., AYU met her mum.

&nw here updating bloggy. story long ar. haha.
well, u guys taiikares yarr.
daa~!!

PICTURES.

2008-09-19T00:08:00.001-07:00

HELLO ~!
tis are de pictures i promised u guys, of me aft being 'maked-up' by dearest sister.
&oh yes! i admit tis eyelashes are FAKE ok? :D
buruk2 kn? hurhur

muker mak2 seii. HAHA ! xD

BDAE LARH KN~!!!

2008-09-17T06:07:00.000-07:00

ni larh APPY ; bestie tersyggg <3>

HAPPY BDAE TO ME!!! YAY ~!!

2dae is officially 17th sept & its my bdae. im soooooooooooooo happy.
im glad tt alot of my dear frens rmmbr tis dae.
as long as dey rmmbr tis date&to wish me., i dun expect anything else from dem.

ni AHKY<3>

well., on mondae, i felt so excited for tuesdae since APPY wanted to treat me swensens.
not just me but AYU too coz he owes her a treat.
den AHKY tagged along too. on mondae itself., he text me asking wed my bdae ehk.
i said yea&he wished me.

ni APOH<3>

on tuesdae., i had class actually at 130 till 3 but i tk kuase nk peg.
i was looking forward to gg out wit APPY,AYU&AHKY.
me&AYU met at tamp & we rched marina at abt 6+. met dem at arcade.
skali muncul muker APOH. haha., tot he wun be dere.
den me,APPY,AYU&AHKY wen our seperate ways. we rched swensens at 7. ddk jek da buke.
got our plain water., tros minum.
den ordered MAC&CHEESE,BAKEDRICE&ICECREAM&1 more i dun rmmbr& tts APPY&AHKY'S nyer.
aft everything., wen to slope&lek2 dgn APOH n some others.
WAHIDAH&AKY den came. it was her bdae ystdae. dier bwk cake. sedap !
1st APOH, den AHKY plak yg suap. hurhur.
AHKY niided 2 go hm. snap a pic wit hym den he wen off.

ni WAHIDAH<3>

den kte g arcade agik maen pool. alot happened., funny stuffs. HAHA.
took pics wit WAHIDAH,APOH&APPY.
den wen off at 1015. got hm at 11 smething.

2DAE., kt skola byk jgk org igt bdae aku. hurhur. thx 4 de wishes darlings.
got hm 4rm sch &slept for lyk 4 hrs seii. bgn 30 mins b4 bukeing.
ate spaghetti&lot more. g toilet buang air den skali kluar jek.,
HAPPY BDAE!!! i got happy bdae song dari KAKAK., MOTHER., ADEK& ABG FIR.(tunang kakak)
best nyerr. WEEEEEEEE~!
nw here updating. gotta go., nk tgk jeritan sepi. LAST EPISODE!!
daa~! taiikares all. THANKS again 2 all who wished me. TQ !!

IM 16 !! HURHUR. xD

gagaga~

2008-09-12T11:08:00.000-07:00

Well., im missing everybody !

GFs&BFs., EVERYONE.

lagik2 shiira. gawd imy bby :)

well., dis daes been revising alot on physics. maths tknk., physics ajer.

din go to sch on thurs coz i was soo god damn lazy but i did go to sch juz nw.

i forced myself up. i told myself tt if i wanna absent myself, do it aft Ns coz attendance is compulsory 4 now.

i have de intention to study but wen in comes to MATHS period., i tend to get real slipy.

my gawd. mls aku, mls! =D

kakak put on make-up 4 me on thurs but i cnt transfer de pics into my com coz dere's something typically wrong wit my com.

i'll upload de pics as soon as i transfer dem oke.den i let u c hw MATURE i look. hahaa.

well, tts all i gotta sae. i'll update again either 2dae aft outing to geylang or on sundae if i've got no tyme kae.

taiikares aytes.

to ALL BFs&GFs., IMY oke. hurhur. xD

& yarr., 2 all keep tis in mind., 17 SEPT TAO.

kire, jgn tk kire. hahaa, pakse org plak aku. hurhur.

KEHHBYE~!

AHMAD FIRDAUS.

2008-09-10T08:27:00.000-07:00

have you ever tot of ;

hw strong my feelings were for u?
hw much tyme i've sacrificed just 4 u?
hw much i missed u wen u weren't ard?
hw unsecure i felt w/o u ard me?
hw much tyme i spent writing abt u in my diary bcoz i was too deeply in love wit u till i cnt stop thinkin of u?
hw i wish u cud read tis & finally realise hw much I LOVE YOU.

whr r u dear? i heard u've been missing, uve been sent IN.
i just wanna tell u ;
im thinkin of u every single day.
every nyte i pray u'd b alright.
i've regreted soo much 4 wat i've done to u.
im sorry bby. seriously., i wish u cud be able to read tis.
i shud have waited, i shud hav given u a chance.

as i write tis., my eyes filled wit tears tt i've kept since u've been gone.
i've tried hard but still im thinking of u.
simply, i just cnt 4get abt u. ure too much of a memory to let go.
maeb we spent too much tyme till dere's none left.
i shud have nvr let u hold me., maeb tts de reason y im sad to c us apart.
i din give to u on purpose., juz cudn't figure out hw u stole my hart.
w/o u ryte nw, i feel a piece of me has fallen out.

your warm big2 hugs&your soft lips against myne,
ur hands ard my waist., as a sign of not wantin 2 let me go,
u whispering in my ears, 'iloveyou' as de wind blows tru my hair,
everything., EVERY SINGLE THING we did is missed bby.

AHMAD FIRDAUS., IM SORRY BBY. :'(

IBU~ !!

2008-09-09T06:28:00.000-07:00

MONDAE.
ystdae, tk skola. mls sgt2 den agikpun tkde 1 pun GF's gik skola. tk payah larh.
den aft tt, waited 4 MAIE's kol. siap den wen off to hosp dgn dier. SGH.
took train 4rm sgkg., drop pt outram park. jln naek bukit., aduuuii.
we rched abt 4 den met 4 relatives. sat down inside de wating room dpn Operating Theatre.
each tyme de door opens, we stand to see. we waited 4 a long tyme. sempat maen PSP.
satu2 my relatives dtg, tggu peh tggu.
4rm 4 till buke kte tggu. smua buke pt dlm waiting room. kte smua da risau.
skali de door opened at 720., out came my IBU.i tk dpt tgk sbb i pat dlm waiting room.
abt 4 to 5 of my relatives nmpk, said my IBU nyer mulut byk masok tube.
satu2 kate 'ALHAMDULLILLAH'. from waiting room gi ICU nyer waiting room plak.
tggu lamer plak tu nk tgk dier. oh ya ! luper., ayu dgn meo tgh waiting 4 me.
meo nk cukur kening&asked 4 my help. nk masok jmpe my IBU jek mkn 1 jam.
drg tggu aku dari kul 745 gi, aft dey buke.

i got in 2 ICU pun kul 915 gitu, dgn MAIE.
we cudnt go into de room., we only got to stand outside&c her tru de glass door.
i look at her., i nearly cried. kesian tgk dier. penat.
den saw her kelip mate, but i noe she tk sedar still.
stood dere 4 abt 5mins tros jln. kluar, asked mum to go.
den smpi sgkg at 10. den jmpe drg, abe ujan.
wen to my place jap amek brg2 den go down g blk dpn.
ddk kt tmpt ddk den start larh cukur. da gitu, meo bought redbull.
lek2 jap den 1105 drg jln. antar drg dkt bridge&so i wen hm.
mlm tu jgk otp till late again dgn drg&MON. sibuk jek.
kul 3++ tarok pastu tdo. ader paper siol.

TUESDAE.
2dae i had my cpa practical. cock up sia.mepek2 ar.
da gitu tkpeerr., takot jek aku tk dpt distinction agik. pfft~
got hm straight aft tt., since tk puase, agikpun sorang pt umah, ate abit.
tdo smpi kul 630. bgn, go shop belikn adek air den smua buke.
i ikot mkn sbb blum mkn kn.
den nw here i m updating my blog !
ok go, da cukup panjang. gtg. taiikares yarr darlings.

daa~ akuuuu rinduuuuuu dieeeeeeeer :(

DYLA

2008-09-09T05:13:00.000-07:00

sorry din update my blog. was too bz gg out tis days.
i rmmbr i wen to geylang 3 days straight.
on fridae, g dgn ayu aft buke. reached dere at nearly 9. met my cuzzie MAIE&FATYN.
den jmpe de whole lot GF's&BF's. ribut siols.
den something BAAAD happened. byk jgk larh bende terjad. ape nk jad., aduiii.
daa gitu tkperr tau. EX si dek tuh plak stare2 aku. dier saket aku lah asik2 pandang aku.
susah ar pmpn ni mcm., yeye nk conquer skola tap PRANGAI ! pfft~ -.-
tap tkde pape ar., diam kn ajer larh si 'adek' tuh. haiyoh.
den wen back at 1105 rched hm at 1205 i tink. abt dere larh.

sat., wen to geylang again. waduuh ! wen dere wit my fam.
punyerrr larh rimass. ramai org larh seii. wen dere to find baju kurung for my adek.
pusing peh pusing. dpt colour purple. nk merah, dier beli purple.
den wen off to buy contact lenses. i had to buy 2 coz my eye degree both diff.
3 for $55, kakak mengamok. dier bayar tkkn dpt satu jek kn. so she bought 1 more.
den wen back hm naek kereta my kakak nyer tunang. rched hm at abt 12.
otp wit ayu&meo till late den drg suroh ajak MON. zack ehsai nk bobal dgn dier. haha.
abe dier kol, dier siang2 tau 2 meo. ape ar meo., suare ttp samer.
otp till sahur, da semangat nk sahur. skali g toilet ........ ! tk jad larh puase nyer.
tros tdo. buat pnt aku jek but den tkper larh., gyrek jgk bbl dgn dorang.
sun, ptg nyer peg geylang agik b4 breakfast. beli baju dkt bimla. shesssh~
den from dere wen to dis place which i dun rmmbr where., bought some food to breakfast.
den go bukit merah., umah nenek buke saner. den aft tt wen to hosp, visit my IBU.
she my auntie tt im very close wit., VERY ! she took care of me since i was small. tu psl panggil IBU.
sad2., she gotta go operation. sedih siol., wen back prayed hard.
i hope everything wud be alryte.

ILYIBU.<3

bdae SITI AIN larh knn. :)

2008-09-04T06:21:00.000-07:00

2dae is the 4th n its ayusweets's bdae. din get to celebrate wit her 2dae coz she's got a 'date'. aniwaes., ystrdae was my SS paper n damn de qns mepek sak.
the paper finished at 3 & everyone wen baq straight to siap., nk kuar celebrate ayu's bdae.

at 550 i wen out. met everyone at T3 at 630., aku larr last smpi. biase jgk., aku kn starkarat. =D
walked to popeye & tried to find a seat. tggu peh tggu., ader jgk tmpt ddk., ramai sgt lurh kn.
den i sat dwn wit irah while ayu, iqah & ila ordered the food. mkn da smpi, tk smpi 5 mins da bang. smua mkn, LAJU. hahaa.
ahhyou came much ltr aft kte da gelak ketawe mcm bdk2 tk btul, org pun tgk kn.
den irah & iqah wen off 1st to buy ayu her pressie. den me, ila, ahhyou & ayu walked off.
ternmpk iqah dgn irah dlm minitoons den i cpt2 tarik ayu go candy empire. we bought chocolates. our addiction larh kn.
we took the lift up 2 find the mrt station.
den irah & iqah gave their pressie to ayu. biaser jgk larh, TURTLE.

den snap a few pics den wen in de train. dlm train pun bleii kecoh. smua ketawe rabak seii. hurhur.
den smpi paya lebar, terserempak kechyk. den jmpe ADIK meo den we wen off to miit de others.
smpi tanjong katong, salam smua, trus jln go bazaar. si dek tuh ader sak. -.-
we din buy anything except 4 de 'arab' ice-cream. hurhur. klakar ice-cream jatuh pt tetek iqah. haha.
den wen to grandlink, maen pool. haha. ni part pun kekek2 ar. ahhyou smpi terbaring2
ketawe abe lipas naek rmbt dier. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

in de end, me & meo beat ayu & irah in a game of pool. hurhur. GFs, nk maen agik?
den jln kul 11. tggu bus smpi kul 1120. lmbt pah.
me &ayu boarded de bus. den nearly 12., she received lyk ALOT of msgs. den i looked at her
hp timing, at exactly 12 i send her a bdae msg, padahal aku kt sblah dier jek. abe smpi lmbt, 2 mins late. stoooopid.
she trun dulu, i trun kt blakang umah, gelap gylerrr lor. balik, tok 2 ayu n ADIK skejap den slip.
abe tk terbgn sahur, pfft~

n tad paper eng, stress skejap. compo tk tau nk tulis aper.
P2 ok ar. passage panjang nah. aft paper, wen to topup p8 den wen hm tros.
i was too tired i TER-tdo.bgn kul 5.30, cm ...... seii dyla. hurhur.
den buke nasi dgn lauk nenas & ader larh kuih2 & now here i am typing my story while
chattin dgn mimi ciner, aku peh syggggggg. =)
da lah, till here. pnt larh, i bet u guys r tired too reading my boring story yarr.
nk 'dier' kol nari. well, i hope soo.

KEHBYE~!!!
(9.25 am)

GAAHH ~

2008-09-01T22:35:00.000-07:00

Its been ages since i had a blog. its de start of the fasting month and my 1st N paper is 2morrow. SS larh seii.

Lyf's fyne tis daes. i have my family & de bestest frens here 4 me. been missing hym lately. its been awhile since i last saw hym. but no worries, i got his vids 2 watch., hurhur. to my frens who noes who de hell im tokin abt., pls shut up abt it., TQ. =)

Well., haven got anything else to write coz nothing great has happened since ystdae., but i'll get baq soon ok. since ive ald have a comp at hm. maybe i wun be updating much tho ok.

Taiikares yar. BYE~!